Demon

I try to close my eyes in the middle of the night,
Lying down on my bed which had been a comfort for a while.
But I am defeated and dashed,
And asleep and scared,
Coz they won't let me sleep,they won't let me sleep.

I close my eyes, haunted by the thoughts that blast my head,
And suddenly I am engulfed by a dense smoke in my head.
I am suffocated and strangled by a power I don't know,
I am reminded and told by it to let go.
But I can't free myself of the hold of it,
I shuffle and tussle on my bed to get rid of it.

The demon becomes intense and big,
Not a pint of air gets in and not a hint of it.
Every cell inside me is suffocated, the blood tries to rush at a faster pace,
The tubes burning by the effect, an exposion inside,
The smoke fills in and I feel like hardly alive.
It's getting deeper and denser than I would imagine,
I don't want it to survive, I don't want it to win.
The more I struggle,  the more it gets to win.
I am lying on my bed almost dead,  defeated,
I don't know what to do and how to come out of it.
I am lying in the depths struggling with the demon in my head,
The darkness getting denser,engulfing me alongwith.
Now I feel like giving up,coz I have tried too hard and,
Left with no power to throw him away, apart.

I just want to close my eyes and rest in peace.
It has been the longest night I ever had,
It has been the longest night I have ever seen.