Demon

I try to close my eyes in the middle of the night,
Lying down on my bed which had been a comfort for a while.
But I am defeated and dashed,
And asleep and scared,
Coz they won't let me sleep,they won't let me sleep.

I close my eyes, haunted by the thoughts that blast my head,
And suddenly I am engulfed by a dense smoke in my head.
I am suffocated and strangled by a power I don't know,
I am reminded and told by it to let go.
But I can't free myself of the hold of it,
I shuffle and tussle on my bed to get rid of it.

The demon becomes intense and big,
Not a pint of air gets in and not a hint of it.
Every cell inside me is suffocated, the blood tries to rush at a faster pace,
The tubes burning by the effect, an exposion inside,
The smoke fills in and I feel like hardly alive.
It's getting deeper and denser than I would imagine,
I don't want it to survive, I don't want it to win.
The more I struggle,  the more it gets to win.
I am lying on my bed almost dead,  defeated,
I don't know what to do and how to come out of it.
I am lying in the depths struggling with the demon in my head,
The darkness getting denser,engulfing me alongwith.
Now I feel like giving up,coz I have tried too hard and,
Left with no power to throw him away, apart.

I just want to close my eyes and rest in peace.
It has been the longest night I ever had,
It has been the longest night I have ever seen.

Akelapan

Kehne ko ek ehsaas akelepan kaa hai logon ko
Kehne ko ek ehsaas akelepan kaa hai logon ko,
Par koi akela h kahan.
Socho tou dimaag ki gustakhi h ye,
Aur naa socho tou har dum saath hazaro ehsaas hain.

Bachpan ki pehli yaadon se ek tasveer mann me aati h,
Maa k aanchal sang papa ki hasi mann me chapp jaati h.
Sharaartein wo khatti meethi jo bhai behen k sang mil k hui,
Aur wo kahin unkahein lavz jo unki aankhein keh gyi.

Akelapan kya h... Hai kis kamzori ka naam!!
Kya kuch anjaane logo ka saath kaafi hai dil ko behlaane k liye??
Socho tou akele ho tum aur naa socho tou bhari duniya saath h tumhare,
Bas mann k kono me darr ek hai, shayad jakde hue charo aor se.
Kyun unn logo k saath ki umeed karte ho jo tumhare saath k kabil nahi,
Naa ehsaas unhe h tumhare dil ka,
aur na guftgoo kaa jo ho rahi tumhare dimag me kahin.
Jo shabdo ko nahi samajh sakte,unse unkahein ehsaas samajhne ki umeed karte ho!!
Ae moorkh dil, aur akelepan ki baat bhi karte ho, aur akelepan ki baat karte ho...

Door baithe tumse wo chand log,jinki awaz aaj bhi unke dil ka haal bayan karjaati h,
Jude h dil k taar tumhaare unse, bas ek hasi hi kaafi hai.
Unn logon k sang wo hazaro lamhe aur ek ehsaas anjaana sa,
Jo kahin aur naa mil pae aapko,meetha sa pyaara sa.
Fir bhi tum akelepan ki baat karte ho,
fir b tum akelepan ki baat karte ho....!!!